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Things I am currently busy with :-O

Wow, writing/ blogging is so so difficult.

I was never ready, for some people it seems to come so naturally. I am jealous.

Most bloggers (from what i have seen), have it all figured out, the theme, their way of writing etc etc. right down to using the right pictures, its like a job! I’m not surprised though because social media (or online content) has developed tremendously (hey look at me I’m using big english). Oh wait! I digress (hahaha).

Anyway I was on youtube the other day and I came across a vlogger or  youtuber, I’m not sure what they are called, but someone had a video where they were discussing their career as a youtuber and looks like these guys get paaid . I then bumped into the same blogger on a Standard Bank social media campaign and thought wow!!

I’m not saying  that I want to pursue a career in social media, but I find it so fascinating. It’s always amazing when people get paid for doing what they love, or doing what comes naturally to them. Amen to that!!

Anyway here I am writing about things that have nothing to do with what I had in mind when I clicked “write”.

Basically this post is about all the things that I’m currently doing/ loving/ interested in. Here we go.

Beauty

I’ve recently taken an interest in make-up. I’ve hardly ever worn make up in my life, most likely only on special occasions like graduation or weddings, so I thought let me try this out. I’m usually always a plain Jane and I am tired of that,most of the time I would just wear lipstick which sometimes disappears during the course of the day.

Now I’ve started doing my eyes and lips consistently and always making sure that I have lipstick in my bag to consistently touch up. I’m soo scared of foundation though, i feel like it will ruin my skin :(.

Up until a few weeks ago i kid you not, i only owned eyeliner, lipstick and some foundation i bought maybe 4 years ago haha. So my friend @missjuiced and i went on a make-up shopping date this past weekend. I didn’t even know where to start, especially since the make up world (just as social media) has evolved so much. Now there exists things like primers, concealers , bronzers etc. that I had never heard of before.

But baby steps, I’ll keep practising and watching more youtube videos 🙂

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This is me with my eyebrows done, eyeliner and some nude lipstick 🙂

Gym and Health

The least said about this the better 😦

Books

I am currently reading the The Book of Joy: Lasting happiness in a changing world,a book by the Nobel Peace Prize Laureates His Holiness Tenzin Gyatso, the 14th Dalai Lama and Archbishop Desmond Tutu written by Douglas Abrams.

I love love love this book, I am enjoying it so much (will probably write a review about it once done)

I have also been reading Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden. This is really an amazing story and I don’t understand why I have been reading it since July 2016 and I am still not done

Music

Currently on my playlist is a lot of Prince (i feel like this is consistent). Prince is always on my list like ALWAYS.

Jidenna – The Chief ( i actually just saw online that he is in South Africa, but i can’t find any info about where he will be performing and now I am stressed because he is in Johannesburg and I’m currently in Cape Town)

Bruno Mars – 24k magic 

Leon Bridges – Rivers (this song was brought back to my playlist by a new series called Big Little Lies, continue reading for more)

Khalid – American Teen

….and many more.

Mhmm what else did i want to mention?? oh yes

TV shows

Big Little lies – starring Reese Witherspoon and Nicole Kidman, this series focuses on women and their issues. At first it poses to be a murder mystery but you quickly learn that actually that is not the focus of the story but what these women go through, from rape to abusive relationships to dealing with infidelity, a must see!!

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<Nicole Kidman, Reese Witherspoon and Shailene Woodley>

Ok that’s it for now, I’m out of ideas and tired of typing. Till next time 🙂

 

You don’t think it will ever happen to you, until it happens to you.

It is no secret that crime is a big issue in South Africa, however I feel that you never think it will happen to you, until it happens to you.

Not that I have never  been a victim of crime but in my adult life i don’t think i have experienced something so close.

Although i was fast asleep when the incident happened i still picture it in my head. How did someone manage to get in and out without making a sound? did i not lock? no but i explicitly remember locking that particular night, so it cannot be that.

I was drained and tired and had been working late but i always make sure things are locked. The rain probably worked as a fantastic lullaby to keep us asleep, but then there is also the possibility that a CD might have been burnt or something sprained in the air to prevent us from hearing anything.

The burning a CD phenomen was popular quite a few years back with people saying that its the mechanism that thieves use to induce a deep sleep.Urban legends generally feed off paranoia and there are a number of gems that have been doing the rounds for years, which regularly get rehashed and circulated among the somewhat gullible public. So if there was ever something in CDs that rendered people unconcious , surely CD making companies would find an alternative ingredient to use in producing said CDs.

One thing such a situation does do though, is to make you feel like a fool. That you are not worthy of being respected and your space and property should not be respected.There is no regard for the law so why should anyone care about me? Especially when they are trying to enrich themselves.

So what is the effect of such an experience? I understand mine might not be, as severe as criminals have gone to the lengths of tying people up and even sometimes using weapons and violence. The material possessions can be replaced, but  nothing can take away the traumatic experience.

So who do you turn to? cry to ? when all you want is to be safe in your home ? in your city and in your country?

I for one do not want to live in fear, i dont want to be that person who is constantly watching their back. But life is currently teaching me otherwise. How do we find happiness in such a world?

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Who AM I?

What am i doing here?

This year I will read more, I will lose the kgs that I have been struggling with. I’ll talk to my parents more. Ill be better, do better at my job, love life, I’ll be a better friend etc etc.

But how can i be all of these things when some mornings i just want to rollover and frankly not BE anything.

It came to me that I do not spend time with MYSELF, me and my thoughts, those that haunt me, those that excite me and those dreams that are literally so big they scare ME.

What does the world expect from a 25 year old? Is it time to get married? should I go overseas? AM I GOODENOUGH? should I be doing more? What is my life purpose etc.

I believe that if we never ask the questions we need to, the answers shall never come.

This intro may sound like I am all over the place, what is she saying you may ask. But i feel that when you write something down and read it back to yourself. It allows you the opportunity to step out of the situation that you are currently in.

Welcome to my world and what i intend to share.
Lets be lost together, let’s find ourselves together.